Little Stacey-Ann Tracy was raped and murdered in 1990. Journalist SHERELE MOODY tells the story of how Stacey’s demise impacted the lives of six girls over the previous three a long time.

THEY discovered her small damaged physique slumped towards a tree within the undergrowth by a dry creek mattress.

She lay a couple of metres from a roughly hewn monitor connecting the close by city to its garbage dump, the heavy bushland shielding her from the view of passing motorists.

For 4 lengthy chilly depressing nights, she was crumpled towards that tree – a nine-year-old woman frightened of the darkish discarded in demise like garbage.

In a rushed try to cover his hideous actions, he tossed her away with all of the murderous accoutrements in place. A window blind wire wrapped tightly round her neck, its fibres reducing into her delicate pale pores and skin; a splash of brightly colored materials grotesquely spilling from the nook of her mouth; a bruise, the scale of his fist, darkening considered one of her cheeks.

Bizarrely, he tried to protect her modesty, sliding her legs and waist right into a used black rubbish bag. Beneath the rumpled plastic her underpants had been lacking, her netball skirt askew.

A torn scrap of paper, lined in handwritten names and numbers, clung resolutely to considered one of her toes – a calling card of types unwittingly left behind by her killer.

The post-mortem confirmed she had been raped earlier than – and after – she died.

He shoved her personal underwear down her throat to silence her screams throughout his vile assault. When she didn’t choke to demise on the fabric, he strangled the remaining life from her physique with the blind wire.

Her identify was Stacey-Ann Tracy. He was Barry Gordon Hadlow.

She disappeared as she walked to high school within the Queensland city of Roma on Tuesday, Might 22, 1990.

That is the story of that one monstrous day in Might and the impression it had on Stacey-Ann’s sister Elizabeth Tracy, her mom Janet Mills Clarke,  her grandmother Joan Mills, her greatest pal Charlie Shaw, the detective who put her killer behind bars and the journalist writing this text.

Stacey-Ann's family Joan Mills, Janet Mills Clarke and Elizabeth Tracy. Janet and Elizabeth moved to Melbourne to live near Joan after Stacey was killed. The women are now all living in Bundaberg and hope to visit Roma again soon.

Stacey-Ann’s household Joan Mills, Janet Mills Clarke and Elizabeth Tracy. Janet and Elizabeth moved to Melbourne to reside close to Joan after Stacey was killed. The ladies are actually all dwelling in Bundaberg and hope to go to Roma once more quickly. Mike Knott


ELIZABETH Tracy was born 18 months after her huge sister Stacey-Ann.

They could not have been twins, however the siblings had been mirror photographs of one another. Each barely constructed, blonde-haired blue-eyed lasses adored equally by their household.

Whereas their bodily options had been eerily comparable in that particular sisterly sort of manner, their personalities had been worlds aside.

Stacey was a folks particular person and a gifted singer and dancer, blossoming in entrance of a crowd.

She was whip-smart, a devoted pupil, fashionable along with her friends and surrounded by giant teams of buddies. Her favorite sport was netball.

From the time she may stroll and discuss, she confirmed a fierce streak of independence.

Yin to Stacey’s Yang, Libby was shy and reserved. She most well-liked her personal firm and that of shut household. A studying impairment meant she struggled at college. Sport was not her factor however dropping herself within the pages of her books was.

The variations meant nothing although, their bond was deep and abiding. It was a bond that might solely be damaged by demise.

“We did all the things collectively,” Libby, now aged 37, says.

“Wherever she went she’d say ‘Libby’s coming with me’ – whether or not I needed to go or not.

“I’d have adopted her wherever.”

Libby was typically bullied and her huge sister was not one to take the assaults on her sister mendacity down.

Libby recollects the day an older boy knocked her face first into the inexperienced grass of their faculty oval.

Stacey raced throughout the grounds and decked the younger lad.

“She was at all times sticking up for me,” Libby says.

“She felt she needed to defend me.”

Stacey shouldered the results of her actions with aplomb, not complaining after copping a dressing down from the principal and being despatched residence on suspension.

It was a small value to pay to maintain her sister protected.

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Like most younger women rising up then,’ Stacey’s fave toy was her Cabbage Patch doll. She blasted the synth-heavy energetic anthems of that period, blasting out her personal renditions of the hits of the day.

“She actually liked Belinda Carlisle and her track Run Away Horses,” Libby says.

“She’d drive us loopy once we went within the automotive, as a result of she would at all times play that track on the cassette participant.

“When the track ended, Mum must rewind it so she may hearken to it once more.”

Libby was simply seven years outdated when Stacey’s track was silenced.

Might 22, 1990 dawned moist and gloomy in Roma as a mild rain soaked the city.

As was their behavior, Libby and Stacey rose round 7am, donning the college uniforms their mom neatly laid on the tip of their beds the night earlier than.

Janet was criminal that morning, so the ladies helped themselves to cereal and watched cartoons.

They kissed their mum goodbye and headed off on the quick stroll to the Roma Junior College campus the place Libby’s class was based mostly.

“We had this little clear plastic umbrella,” Libby remembers.

“We had been each huddled underneath it.

“I might misplaced mine, so she got here into my class to assist me search for it within the misplaced and located.”

Stacey seek for the umbrella was interupted as Libby’s trainer urged her to rush to her personal campus, lest she be late for sophistication.

“Stacey gave me a kiss and a cuddle and mentioned ‘I like you Lib. So long’,” Libby says.

“I mentioned ‘Yep, I like you too. Will see you then’.

“That was the final time I ever spoke to her or noticed her alive.”

Libby’s day was fairly odd till the clock’s arms ticked handed 3.45pm – the time when Stacey was because of meet her so they may stroll residence collectively.

By 4pm, employees at Libby’s faculty had been involved that the woman was nonetheless there in order that they contacted Janet.

Elizabeth (Libby) Tracy was forever scarred when her sister Stacey-Ann was murdered.

Elizabeth (Libby) Tracy was endlessly scarred when her sister Stacey-Ann was murdered. Mike Knott

Libby and Stacey had by no means recognized violence, their household made positive they had been protected against the world’s darkish sides.

It was this shielding of their innocence that meant Libby couldn’t think about the worst outcomes for her sister.

Abduction, homicide, rape – these had been very a lot alien ideas but she felt a darkish foreboding alongside her fear and confusion.

That first night with out Stacey was a chaotic blur.

Janet and household buddies searched the streets, faculty grounds, parks, ovals and public areas to no avail.

Police got here, asking Libby to repeat the morning’s occasions time and again till she fell into mattress at midnight, exhausted and damaged.

“It was actually daunting however I answered their questions one of the best I may,” Libby says.

“I informed them what had occurred and the final dialog we had.

“I used to be apprehensive and eager to know what occurred to Stacey.

“I needed her to come back residence. It was actually scary.”

The subsequent day, Libby went to stick with trusted buddies who had been underneath strict directions to maintain the teen away from tv information broadcasts and the every day papers. Janet didn’t need her uncovered to hypothesis about her sister and what might need befallen her.

Libby was nonetheless on the buddies’ home on the day Stacey was discovered, her mom refusing to carry her residence till her grandmother arrived from Melbourne to assist break the information her sister was useless.

Shedding Stacey-Ann was the primary time Libby had confronted demise – she was far too younger to totally perceive the implications.

“My grandmother needed to inform me about Stacey as a result of Mum could not get the phrases out,” she says.

“It was overwhelming.

“I do not suppose I completely realized that she was useless.”

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Precisely per week after Stacey disappeared, Libby and her household gathered within the chapel at Roma’s funeral residence to say their goodbyes to the teen.

In a small white coffin, surrounded by comfortable pink velvet, the little woman’s physique lay.

The mortician did their greatest to cover the accidents left behind by her killer.

Make-up lined the bruises on her face and the rope marks round her neck. She was wearing a pink and white frock speckled with flowers and adorned with stripes.

A fragile gold bracelet clung to her little wrist and a golden chain with a heart-shaped locket graced her neck.

Too small to see into the coffin, Libby stood on a stool so she may kiss Stacey for the final time.

“I will see you once more quickly,” she informed her sister.

Libby says when her lips touched Stacey’s chilly pores and skin, she understood the true which means of demise.

“That was actually exhausting to cope with,” she says.

“It actually broke me.

“I used to be unhappy for a really very long time.”

Stacey-Ann Tracy's grave in Roma.

Stacey-Ann Tracy’s grave in Roma.

The group at Stacey’s funeral was one of many largest Roma had ever seen.

Graziers and grain growers, farm arms, store assistants, lecturers, medical doctors, uniformed police, detectives, trade leaders, politicians, SES volunteers, grandmothers, grandfathers, youngsters and youngsters – it appeared on that day that there wasn’t one particular person in Roma who was not touched indirectly by Stacey’s demise.

After a shifting service with conventional hymns and prayers and fond reminiscences shared about her quick life, Stacey’s coffin was carried to the hearse and pushed the small distance to the native cemetery.

Stacey is considered one of 4268 folks buried in that cemetery. Her grave is roofed by a neat pink and white tiled slab.

Typically, form townsfolk place flowers within the vases that sit by her bronze memorial plaque.

Life after dropping Stacey was powerful for Libby.

Her household made each effort to maintain the violent particulars of Stacey’s passing underneath wraps, however the youngsters of Roma weren’t so considerate.

Libby by no means fitted into the city like Stacey did. She wasn’t the favored woman and people round her let her comprehend it.

“After she died the opposite youngsters would inform me it ought to have been me who was raped and murdered,” she says.

“They had been actually nasty.

“They had been older youngsters and they need to have recognized higher.”

Hadlow’s determination to kill Stacey has had life-long ramifications for her sister.

It was practically inconceivable for Libby to bond with anybody exterior of her household and on the uncommon events that she began to get near others, she would maintain part of herself again.

She feared these she liked could be taken away like Stacey was.

In a manner, this terror has doggedly adopted Libby all through her life.

Even now, she prefers her books and her little canine Dobby to the corporate of individuals.

She is extraordinarily near her mum and grandmother however Libby has by no means married and can’t see herself having youngsters.

“I do not suppose I’d be as shy and reserved as I’m as a result of she would have made positive I met folks and that I had buddies and went out,” Libby says.

“We bought the life sentence. Stacey bought the demise sentence. He bought mattress and breakfast.

“I would not want this ache on anybody.”

Stacey-Ann was a calm baby who delighted everyone she met.

Stacey-Ann was a relaxed child who delighted everybody she met.


STACEY-ANN was by no means meant to be, but by miracle she existed.

Stacey’s mom Janet had simply turned 18 when medical doctors defined there was no likelihood she would ever have youngsters.

Her incapability to conceive, they mentioned, was due to Janet’s personal rocky begin to life.

Janet’s mom fell pregnant with twins.

It isn’t recognized why, however one twin died in utero. The opposite twin – Janet – survived. As Janet grew inside her mom’s womb, her physique absorbed her sibling’s foetal tissue.

Referred to as vanishing twin syndrome, the lack of a child this fashion happens throughout the first trimester of about 30 per cent of a number of pregnancies.

Whereas the syndrome does not impair the mum,  surviving feminine twins are sometimes born with the congenital situation didelphic uterus – or double womb.

Didelphic uterus impacts about 0.5 per cent of ladies and within the worst of instances it means they most certainly will not conceive and in the event that they do fall pregnant, they may miscarry.

After studying she would not have youngsters, Janet and her boyfriend street tripped from Melbourne to Queensland.

One evening in a small caravan at a park within the Brisbane suburb of Carina, Janet fell pregnant.

And – towards the percentages – she carried her child to time period.

On the night of Might 8, 1981 – after a mammoth 19-hour labour – Stacey screamed her manner into the world

“They got here to me at 6.30pm and mentioned they’d should do a Caesarean part if she wasn’t born by 7.30,” Janet says.

“She will need to have determined she wasn’t having any of that (the operation) – she was born at three minutes to seven.”

Janet was smitten.

“She was my world,” she says.

“Stacey was such a contented child – she slept all evening proper from the primary evening at residence.

“She wasn’t an ideal child as a result of there isn’t a such factor, however she was nearly as good a child as you can get.

“She was bubbly and at all times joyful – she reached her milestones like several regular child.

“She was a pleasure to have – everybody adored her.”

Janet remembers waking every evening throughout the first months along with her toddler daughter, fearing the kid’s lack of crying and restful sleeping sample may masks one thing sinister.

“I’d freak out and was up each few hours to ensure she was nonetheless respiration, that she was nonetheless alive,” she says.

“I did not even undergo the traditional teething course of like different mother and father do – the place they’re stored up all evening.”

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A child’s first birthday is commonly a time of nice celebration for households and that was actually true of Stacey’s.

“For her first birthday, I bought her a chocolate ice-cream cake,” Janet says.

“I put her in her chair and left the cake somewhat too shut whereas I went out to get the remainder of the household.

“Once I got here again the cake was destroyed and he or she was lined in chocolate.

“It was such a humorous sight – I could not be mad at her.”

Stacey-Ann's first school photo. Just weeks before, the youngster had lovely long hair. She is pictured here with the haircut she gave herself the day before she started school. It is a memory that makes her mum Janet smile.

Stacey-Ann’s first faculty picture. Simply weeks earlier than, the teen had beautiful lengthy hair. She is pictured right here with the haircut she gave herself the day earlier than she began faculty. It’s a reminiscence that makes her mum Janet smile.

At all times the clown, Stacey would typically rope Libby into sensible jokes on unsuspecting household.

Typically, these jokes went somewhat too far – just like the one time she gave herself and her sister a haircut.

“I got here out one morning and there was hair in all places,” Janet says.

“They each had lovely lengthy hair and it was gone.

“I simply cried.

“It was a really unhealthy haircut so we needed to take Stacey to the hairdresser to get it mounted.

“She ended up with actually quick hair for her first day of faculty – I used to be completely gutted.

“That is considered one of my fondest and funniest reminiscences of Stacey.”

A couple of weeks after that disastrous assembly with the scissors, Stacey posed for her first faculty {photograph}.

Some three a long time later, her sensible blue eyes stare astutely at you. Her cheeky half-smile framed by tiny dimples, her tom-boyish blonde hair fluffing the sting of her uniform.

There is no mistaking the arrogance within the five-year-old barely freckled moon-shaped face peering from the getting old picture body.

“I can solely bear in mind Stacey lacking at some point of faculty and that was solely as a result of she harm herself after falling off a waterslide,” Janet says.

Janet and her women lived in Melbourne, close to their prolonged household, till 1989 once they swapped chilly Victoria for the balmy local weather of Queensland’s glitter strip.

A single mom for many of her daughters’ lives, Janet had fallen in love with a person who was a “wanderer at coronary heart”.

Their transfer to the Gold Coast was spur of the second, but it surely was one Janet believed would profit her household.

They settled into a house only a stone’s throw from Janet’s brother at Palm Seashore, embracing the coast’s gaudy sun-tanned surfer vibe, the nice and cozy climate, the pleasant locals and naturally, the seashores.

On April Eight in 1990 their idyl was shattered, with the household having their first actual brush with violence.

That morning,  26-year-old Devil-worshipper Rodney Dale dressed himself completely in black.

With 666 carved into each of his arms, he dosed himself up on medicine and booze, smeared devil-worshipping phrases round his Burleigh Heads condo and armed himself with a gun.

He wrote a brief be aware to his girlfriend: “Deb, gone searching XXXX”.

Casually, he strolled the streets across the Coast, firing the weapon repeatedly and indiscriminately.

One among his bullets killed 77-year-old Kathleen Lewis. He additionally injured Kathleen’s husband Llewellyn and 6 different harmless bystanders.

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This act of violence chilled Janet to the bone.

Wanting desperately to get her daughters out of the world, she agreed when her associate steered they transfer six hours away to a spot she’d by no means seen, not to mention heard of.

Roma is a thriving agricultural city nestled in Queensland’s Outback, some 400km west of Brisbane.

Included in 1867, the city was named after Girl Diamantina Bowen (nee di Roma), the spouse of then Queensland Governor Sir George Bowen.

The area’s unique custodians are the Indigenous folks of the Mandandnji Nation.

White settlers embraced the district for its fertile soil, claiming giant tracts of land as their very own to develop wheat and lift livestock.

By the point Janet and her daughters arrived, it had morphed into the mini-capital of western Queensland and was residence to somewhat over 6000 residents.

Roma had all the things a younger household wanted ­- a big base hospital, three colleges, police and emergency companies, gas stations and a small procuring centre.

With a low crime fee, quiet streets, quant cottages, contemporary air and many open areas, it appeared the right place to lift to 2 little women.

“Sure, to us it was the center of nowhere,” Janet says.

“I might by no means been there, however my associate had.

“He was actually taken with it and I assume that and the person capturing up the streets the place we lived was how he talked me into going there.

“I made the choice to maneuver there as a result of I actually believed Roma was protected – that my youngsters would develop up there and we would not have to fret about their security.”

Caring for 2 little women and struggling crippling migraines, Janet made ends meet on her meagre pension with the assistance of her personal mother and father.

Arriving in Roma, they needed to look forward to a Division of Housing property to turn into obtainable in order that they rented rooms on the second storey of the historic Queens Arms Resort.

Lodging in one of many city’s busiest ingesting holes was removed from superb, however Janet made positive the ladies by no means went into the bar space.

Had they frequented the bar, likelihood is excessive that they’d have run into Hadlow who was a daily there.

He and his spouse Leonie – mom to eight youngsters – had been integral members of the pub’s aggressive darts crew.

Not removed from the CBD, the lodge was additionally a simple five-minute stroll from the Roma State School’s two campuses.

Libby attended the junior campus’s Yr 2 class on Bowen St whereas Stacey enrolled in Yr four on the center faculty on Cottell St.

The stroll between lessons was barely three minutes and it was one Stacey and Libby made 5 days per week with out downside.

Janet, Stacey and Libby settled nicely into Roma’s laidback lifestyle.

Stacey specifically embraced her new hometown, becoming a member of her faculty’s netball squad and rapidly turning into one of the crucial fashionable women in her grade.

Stacey-Ann Tracy was murdered by Barry Gordon Hadlow in Roma in May of 1990.

Stacey-Ann Tracy was murdered by Barry Gordon Hadlow in Roma in Might of 1990.

On the night of Might 21, 1990, Janet ready dinner earlier than taking Stacey and Libby’s uniforms and under-things out of their cabinets and arranging them neatly on the tip of their beds.

In agony from a migraine headache, she had her painkillers and kissed her daughters goodnight.

“I like you. I will you see you within the morning.”

These had been the final phrases she spoke to her eldest daughter.

Early the subsequent day, Janet woke to the rain streaking down the lodge’s home windows, remaining in mattress combating the agonising ache in her head and listening to the ladies chattering as they dressed.

Infantile giggles bounced off partitions whereas cartoons performed on the TV, younger voices falling quiet now and again as spoons clinked towards bowls stuffed with milky Fruit Loops.

After breakfast, Libby and Stacey popped their heads in to kiss Janet goodbye.

Janet’s associate provided to stroll them to high school or to get them a taxi, however the rain exterior was not heavy sufficient to discourage headstrong Stacey.

She cherished the little little bit of independence that got here with taking her sister to high school and he or she was not about to let the climate rain on her parade.

Shortly after the ladies left, Janet made her method to the breakfast desk and settled in for her morning espresso and cigarette whereas planning her day.

It was payday, so she went to the native retailers to purchase the ladies some new garments and to fill up on groceries earlier than returning to the lodge.

An article from the Western Star, published in the days after Stacey-Ann was abducted.

An article from the Western Star, printed within the days after Stacey-Ann was kidnapped.

Round 4pm, she acquired the decision from Libby’s trainer.

In some ways sensible past her years, Stacey was not one to shirk her duties so her failure to show up triggered alarm bells

“She was by no means late residence from faculty. By no means,” Janet says.

“This was very a lot out of the odd.”

Janet referred to as Stacey’s faculty, solely to be informed her daughter had not been in school that day and that nobody on employees thought to let her know.

“I knew that if she had not made it to high school that morning then one thing horrible had occurred to her,” Janet says,

“I went looking for her.

“I walked by these streets the place she would at all times stroll and I simply couldn’t discover her.”

Janet contacted the mother and father of Stacey’s classmates however this was additionally to no avail.

At 6pm she reported her daughter lacking to police.

A lacking youngster investigation began instantly, with detectives from the state’s murder squad  summoned from Brisbane.

“I didn’t know what to suppose had occurred however the police from the beginning had been involved she had been kidnapped,” Janet says.

“The police had been very fast off the mark; they had been simply sensible.

“I can not say a nasty factor concerning the police or their investigation.”

There have been moments over the next days that Janet believed her daughter could be discovered protected.

As pissed off and burdened as she was, the mum had no alternative however to attend patiently whereas residents, State Emergency Service volunteers and police looked for her daughter.

Janet didn’t comprehend it, however one of many folks searching for her daughter was the person who killed Stacey.

Two days into the search and the primary hint of Stacey-Ann emerged when her faculty bag was found tossed on the embankment of a street not far out of city.

Janet Mills Clarke holds a photograph of her daughter Stacey-Ann Tracy.

Janet Mills Clarke holds {a photograph} of her daughter Stacey-Ann Tracy. Mike Knott

4 days after she disappeared, two males discovered Stacey’s physique within the bush close to the Bungil Creek.

“I wasn’t sleeping – I had not slept in any respect for days,” Janet says.

“I used to be pacing round so much. I used to be smoking an excessive amount of.

“I did not exit as a result of I didn’t need to communicate to anybody.

“My stress ranges had been very excessive. I used to be falling aside.

“Then about 1.30pm on the Saturday, there was a knock on the door.”

Detective Gayle Hogan,  from the Queensland Murder Squad, and Graham Corridor, from Roma Police, had been there to ship the worst information.

“I took one take a look at their faces and I knew she was useless,” Janet says.

The officers defined a baby’s physique had been discovered and they’d want somebody to establish the sufferer.

Janet needed to attend for her mom Joan to reach from Melbourne however police wanted the identification finished as quickly as doable.

Behind the Roma Hospital stands an outdated tin shed. In Might of 1990, this ramshackle hut doubled because the city’s makeshift morgue.

Inside, Stacey-Ann’s physique lay on a folded gurney resting atop a big cement slab.

A sheet lined her from her ft to her neck, however her little face was clearly seen.

Janet was not allowed to enter the room to the touch her daughter.

Standing within the doorway, a metre or so away from Stacey, Janet may clearly make out a darkish hand-shaped bruise on her cheek,

The police informed her they thought the brightly colored materials poking from the facet of Stacey’s mouth was a handkerchief.

“No,” she responded. “That is the underwear I laid out for her the evening earlier than. It is her knickers.”

“I’ve lived with that picture of my daughter for 3 a long time – I’ve by no means been in a position to wipe it out,” Janet says.

“I could not even contact her or kiss her, as a result of the post-mortem had not but been finished.

“No mom ought to ever should see their little woman like this. That is what that monster left me with.”

Regardless of her deep shock, circumstances disadvantaged Janet of the time and house she wanted to mirror on what had occurred to her daughter.

Again on the lodge. an enormous throng of journalists, photographers and TV digital camera operators waited for her arrival.

“The media had been actually in my face,” she says.

“As I bought out of the automotive, they crowded round me, they had been jostling me and asking questions on what I noticed and what had occurred to her.

“I hadn’t even had time to course of figuring out my daughter’s physique, however they had been in all places.

“It was a very actually scary second for me.

“I simply needed to go residence and let all of it sink in.”

Media were hungry for news about the little girl lost on that one monstrous day in May of 1990.

Media had been hungry for information concerning the little woman misplaced on that one monstrous day in Might of 1990.

The day after Stacey was discovered, police let Janet know they’d a suspect and that officers had been watching his residence.

They didn’t inform her who he was or how they got here to search out him, however they assured her he could be charged earlier than Stacey’s funeral, which was to be held in three days.

True to their phrase, Hadlow was charged on the Monday with Stacey’s homicide and with sexually violating her.

Whereas Janet came upon Hadlow’s identify after he was charged, she was stored at the hours of darkness about his earlier offending.

It was solely at his committal listening to a couple of months later that she discovered he had been convicted of kid rape on the age of 16 and that he was on parole for the rape and homicide of five-year-old Sandra Dorothy Bacon in Townsville when he did the identical to Stacey.

In November of 1962, Hadlow lured little Sandra into his residence, telling her he had some books he wanted her to move onto her sister.

When she screamed for assist he tried to strangle Sandra to demise.

Sandra was a tiny woman however she fought for her life. He killed her by stabbing a big searching knife straight into her coronary heart, later confessing “she wasn’t dying quick sufficient”.

After killing Sandra, Hadlow wrapped the underside half of her physique in an outdated corn sack and tossed her into the boot of his automotive.

That night he joined the seek for the kid, even approaching her mum and pa to inform them he understood their ache as a result of as soon as “his brother had gone lacking for 4 days”.

A couple of days after killing Sandra, cops discovered her physique in his car they usually arrested him.

“Sure, I’ve killed her,” he informed them.

“I have been anticipating you to select me up”.

After serving his 22 years, a sympathetic parole board fell for Hadlow’s claims that his new-found love of God and the bible had been sufficient to maintain his vile urges at bay.

Janet nonetheless holds a number of anger in the direction of the parole board. She is aware of her daughter would nonetheless be alive if he had remained locked up.

“He was a monster they usually let him go,” Janet says.

“He had shoved Stacey’s knickers to this point down her throat that he blocked her airways.

“He raped her earlier than she died and after she died.

“He tossed her out of his automotive like she was a sack of potatoes.

“I noticed a photograph of her physique that was offered at trial – She was slumped up towards a tree.

“No mom ought to should undergo this.”

Janet says she got here near killing Hadlow as he sat within the dock throughout his trial at Brisbane Supreme Court docket.

“It was so gut-wrenching for me to listen to what he had finished to her,” she says, revealing she thought of grabbing a police officer’s gun to shoot the killer.

“I needed to strangle him with my very own arms.

“In that second, I’d have shot him and saved the taxpayers some huge cash.”

On March 15, 1991, a jury of seven males and 5 girls convicted Hadlow of Stacey-Ann’s homicide.

In marking Hadlow’s file “by no means to be launched”, Justice Tom Shepherdson mentioned a “dreadful mistake” was made when authorities gave Hadlow the keys to his freedom after he killed Sandra Bacon.

Justice Shepherdson mentioned it was clear from a psychiatrist’s report given to the parole board, that Hadlow was an ongoing hazard, his penchant for sexually violating and killing women would by no means be curtailed.

“I can’t perceive how anybody who had the chance to learn the psychiatric report may have allowed you to be launched,” the justice mentioned.

As he was being led from the courtroom, Hadlow yelled: “I am being crucified like Jesus”.

“They’re going to get their’s the mendacity canine,” he continued, directing his anger at police, the prosecutor and the witnesses who gave proof towards him.

Unwilling to go away Stacey alone in Roma cemetery, Janet remained within the city for round two years after her demise however there have been at all times reminders of Hadlow’s actions.

“I might stroll down the road and I might hear folks say: ‘There’s that lady whose daughter was killed’,” Janet says.

“It simply turned an excessive amount of, having them remind me on a regular basis of what had occurred.

“The very last thing I ever needed was to be away from Stacey however I additionally had a daughter who was nonetheless dwelling and he or she deserved for me to present her each alternative and to have an opportunity to not be consistently reminded about what he did.”

It does not matter how a lot distance Janet places between herself and the city the place her daughter died, time and house refuse to let her heal.

The previous 30 years haven’t been form to the now 58-year-old.

The deep-seated trauma of dropping her daughter to such a callous and cold-hearted act of violence means she has taken its toll mentally and bodily.

About 14 years in the past, Janet had a coronary heart assault and has since had 5 stents put into the failing organ.

“My medical doctors consider the guts assault was the direct results of the stress of dropping Stacey-Ann,” she says.

“I’ve been on treatment since Stacey died as a result of I bought the triple booby prize of PTSD, melancholy and nervousness and it is all due to that one one that ended her life and upended ours.”

Hadlow abused witnesses, police, prosecutors, the judge and Stacey's family after he was convicted of her murder.

Hadlow abused witnesses, police, prosecutors, the choose and Stacey’s household after he was convicted of her homicide.

Janet was not too long ago recognized with emphysema; she has diabetes and he or she nonetheless suffers from continual migraines.

Usually well-meaning folks inform her that life will enhance if she forgives Hadlow and lets Stacey go, however that is inconceivable.

“There’s at all times reminders of Stacey,” Janet says.

“Her birthdays, Christmas and Mom’s Day – they’re at all times the toughest moments for me.

“Every year I mild a candle at midnight on her birthday and it burns till midnight.

“And I do the identical on the anniversary of her demise and at Christmas time.

“These are instances of quiet reflection for me and my household.”

Stacey could also be gone in physique, however her spirit is at all times shut.

A candle flame flickering out in a draft-free room; her framed picture randomly falling from a shelf; the texture of tiny chilly fingers softly touching Janet’s arm – these ghostly moments are proof, she says, that Stacey is close by, watching over her household.

“Stacey can be with me till the day I die,” her mum says.

Janet and Libby moved to Bundaberg this 12 months to be nearer to her mom Joan.

It has been round 28 years since she visited Stacey’s grave.

Janet hopes to make the trek to Roma quickly, to put flowers atop the ultimate resting place of her beloved daughter – however first she should discover the power to face the city the place evil worn out a lot promise.

Joan Mills had to tell her granddaughter Libby that her sister Stacey-Ann was murdered.

Joan Mills needed to inform her granddaughter Libby that her sister Stacey-Ann was murdered. Mike Knott


“I NEVER thought I’d outlive my grandchild,” 80-year-old Joan tells me within the weeks earlier than the 30th anniversary of Stacey-Ann’s demise.

‘When she was killed it broke my husband’s coronary heart – he modified in a single day and he by no means actually spoke her identify once more.”

Joan fell in love with Gordon Mills about 60 years in the past at a neighborhood dance in Nathalia, a small city within the northern district of Victoria.

Two years later they married, shifting to Frankston the place they purchased the home they’d name residence for 48 years.

Gordon, like many males of his technology, was a stoic bloke who hardly ever shared – or confirmed – his emotions.

The painter and decorator laboured lengthy hours whereas Joan juggled mothering duties with working in a spread of jobs together with at a faculty for hearing-impaired youngsters, in a library and at a neighborhood bakery.

Every part in Joan and Gordon’s life revolved round their household. They liked their three daughters and their son, elevating them in an trustworthy residence overflowing with kindness and laughter.

They could not have had a lot cash however their’s was a life wealthy in so many different methods.

They welcomed their first grandchild with open arms, doting on Stacey-Ann and taking her on adventures.

“When she was about 18 months outdated, we went to the zoo,” Joan says, once I ask about her favourite reminiscences of Stacey.

“I took her into the pygmy monkey show and he or she began yelling ‘Take a look at him Nanna, take a look at him’ whereas pointing on the monkeys.

“She was so cute that each one the vacationers had been taking images of her, not the monkeys.

“Stacey was a pleasure to be with – she was joyful and he or she by no means precipitated any bother.

“Individuals simply liked to be round her.”

Joan and Gordon Mills adored Stacey-Ann, their granddaughter. Stacey-Ann's murder broke Gordon's heart and he never recovered.

Joan and Gordon Mills adored Stacey-Ann, their granddaughter. Stacey-Ann’s homicide broke Gordon’s coronary heart and he by no means recovered.

Late within the night of Might 22, 1990, two cops arrived on the Mills’ residence.

They had been there, they mentioned, to let Joan and Gordon know Stacey was lacking and that there have been issues for her security.

Dwelling some 17 hours from Roma, there was little Joan and Gordon may do aside from to hope their granddaughter was discovered protected and sound.

The stress and fear was made worse by restricted communication with Janet, whose solely entry to them was through the lodge’s telephone in reception.

Morning and evening, Joan referred to as the police station in Roma to get updates on the investigation.

“We had been frantic however we at all times hoped Stacey could be discovered protected,” Joan says.

“It was exhausting being so far-off, however the police had been implausible.”

4 days after Stacey disappeared, two cops knocked once more on Joan’s door.

“It simply broke my coronary heart,” Joan says of studying her granddaughter had been murdered.

“It destroyed my husband – he simply went into shock.

“Neither of us may perceive how this occurred – why would somebody need to harm our little woman like this?”.

Joan booked a seat on the primary aircraft to Brisbane and by Sunday night she was in Roma.

Distraught and devastated, she put aside her personal heartbreak to help her daughter and Libby.

Janet was in no form to search out the phrases – or the power – to inform Libby what had occurred in order that troublesome dialog fell to Joan.

“Telling Libby that Stacey was useless was the toughest factor I’ve ever needed to do,” Joan says.

“There is no handbook for this.

“There aren’t any directions wherever that let you know learn how to get the phrases out, learn how to inform somewhat woman her sister is rarely coming residence.

“I do not understand how I did it, however I did.

“I sat her down and I mentioned to her, ‘Stacey’s not coming residence’.

“She requested ‘Why, is she sick?

“I mentioned ‘No’.

“She mentioned ‘Has she run away’. I mentioned ‘No’.

“Then she appeared straight at me and mentioned, ‘Is she useless’. I needed to inform her ‘Sure’.

“That simply broke my coronary heart.”

Joan helped organise Stacey’s funeral, selecting her burial garments with care.

“I used to be within the native gown store and all they’d had been the winter garments,” Joan says.

“I needed her to have a fairly summery frock however they did not appear to have any in inventory.

“The store proprietor mentioned to me ‘Is that this for the little woman who was murdered?’.

“Once I informed him it was, he introduced out all their summer time inventory so I may select one for her.

“Stacey liked clothes, flowers and something that was pink.

“So that is what I gave her ­- I gave her a gown that she would have been pleased with.”

Stacey-Ann Tracy with her little sister Elizabeth.

Stacey-Ann Tracy along with her little sister Elizabeth.

Joan carried a number of anger after Stacey’s demise, however she felt unable to specific her grief as a result of she wanted to be sturdy for her husband, her daughter and for Libby.

One small second at nighttime one 12 months after Stacey died, gave the grandmother an opportunity to embrace her personal ache.

“I simply by no means cried – I needed to maintain myself collectively for everybody,” she says.

“Then on this one evening, I woke as much as see somewhat woman in a celebration gown on the finish of the mattress.

“She had no socks or footwear on.

“I bought up and mentioned to her ‘We have to get you some socks and footwear’.

“She mentioned to me: “Nanna, the place I reside, I do not want socks and footwear. Inform Mummy I am joyful’.

“That simply turned the waterworks on for me.

“I assumed I used to be going loopy however Stacey was solely buried in a gown – we by no means put footwear and socks on her.”

Charlie Shaw was nine-year-old murder victim Stacey-Ann Tracy's best friend.

Charlie Shaw was nine-year-old homicide sufferer Stacey-Ann Tracy’s greatest pal.


CHARLIE Shaw knew from the second she met Stacey-Ann that they’d be nice mates.

“I bear in mind seeing this new woman at college and he or she was very nice,” Charlie says,

“She had the loveliest smile.

“I used to be hanging round with all people, so I assumed I might befriend her and introduce her to the opposite youngsters and present her across the faculty – you realize simply hang around along with her and assist her with our schoolwork.

“We turned very shut very quick – we match nicely collectively.

“What she may do, I could not do and what she could not do I may do.

“She was my greatest pal.”

Most days, Charlie and her personal sister would cease by the Queens Arms Resort to affix Stacey and Libby on their stroll to high school.

After faculty, Stacey and Charlie visited one another’s properties or they’d whereas away the hours at a close-by park.

Charlie and her household lived in the identical small unit advanced as Hadlow and his household.

Charlie’s father and Hadlow struck up a friendship, typically serving to one another with repairs and the like.

“I at all times had this sense that he was the kind of particular person to avoid,” Charlie says of Hadlow.

“There was one thing about him that basically scared me – he simply gave off this unhealthy vibe.”

Maybe it was coincidence, or maybe there was one thing sinister at play, however on the afternoon earlier than he murdered Stacey, Hadlow got here in touch with the teen for the primary time.

The ladies had been goofing round within the shared space of the models the place Charlie lived.

Hadlow wandered into the house and Charlie ­- a well mannered well-mannered youngster – launched Stacey to him.

After a short dialog, Hadlow left.

The subsequent morning, Charlie’s father requested Hadlow to drive her and her sister to high school as a result of it was raining and the household didn’t have a automotive.

Hadlow agreed.

Charlie steered dropping by the lodge so they may give Stacey and Libby a raise.

Nonetheless, once they bought there, the ladies had already left so Hadlow dropped the Shaw siblings at college and drove off.

“I actually had this very unhealthy feeling that one thing had occurred to her,” Charlie says of not seeing her pal in school that day.

As the times handed and the seek for Stacey continued, it dawned on Charlie that she may by no means see her pal once more.

“I had a really unhealthy nightmare an evening or two earlier than her physique was discovered,” she says.

“I might by no means had a dream like that.

“Once I awoke I realised one thing unhealthy had occurred to her.”

Barry Gordon Hadlow was on parole when he killed Stacey-Ann Tracy.

Barry Gordon Hadlow was on parole when he killed Stacey-Ann Tracy. Equipped

It is exhausting sufficient dropping a pal to homicide, however Charlie’s expertise was made worse by the truth that she needed to give proof at Hadlow’s homicide trial.

She remembers sitting within the Brisbane Supreme Court docket witness field, immediately throughout from the monster who ended Stacey’s life.

“That was the scariest day,” Charlie says.

“It was horrible.

“I used to be a 10-year-old woman dealing with any individual who had harm one of many closest folks to me.

“I needed to discuss whereas he listened to all the things I mentioned and whereas he watched me.

“It was actually scary ­- I could not look in his route.”

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Charlie feels her life’s trajectory in all probability modified due to Hadlow’s actions.

“I do not bear in mind how I handled it however I do know that I used to be very scared to stroll alone and I’d typically go previous the place her physique was discovered, and that may carry all of the ache again for me,” she says.

“It is impacted me as a mum – I’m over-protective of my youngsters. I will not allow them to spend time with folks I do not know.”

Now aged 39 and mom to 4 youngsters and grandmother to at least one, the Gympie resident says no different friendship had the depth of feeling that her mateship with Stacey had.

“I do know that being buddies along with her made me a greater particular person,” Charlie says.

“I nonetheless actually miss her. I’m wondering what she could be like now.

“She was a phenomenal particular person and I want to God it hadn’t have occurred to her.

“The world would have been a greater place with a pleasant particular person like her in it.”

During her career, Gayle Hogan investigated some of Australia's most heinous crimes including the abduction, rape and murder of Stacey-Ann Tracy.

Throughout her profession, Gayle Hogan investigated a few of Australia’s most heinous crimes together with the kidnapping, rape and homicide of Stacey-Ann Tracy.


DETECTIVE Gayle Hogan arrived in Roma late on the night of Might 22, 1990 to research Stacey’s disappearance.

Then a 12-year veteran with the Queensland Police Service, she knew the possibilities of discovering the nine-year-old alive had been low.

Gayle joined the power on the age of 19, impressed by an incident that occurred to her when she was a teen.

From directing visitors on the Storey Bridge in Brisbane to coping with the tough and tumble miners in strife-torn Mt Isa, her time strolling a number of the state’s hardest beats moulded her right into a straight-talking no-nonsense moral cop with a excessive regard for following the letter of the regulation.

After a prolonged stint investigating intercourse crimes, she turned the primary feminine detective in what many again then thought of policing’s elite boys’ membership – the Queensland Murder Squad.

Placing emotion apart, the 31-year-old detective approached Stacey-Ann’s disappearance calmly and patiently.

She was decided to “dot each I and cross each T”, realizing from expertise that one misstep may see the killer go free.

“As cops, we have to preserve an open thoughts about what has occurred,” she says in a telephone interview from Canada, the place she has simply retired from her position as a chief investigator with British Columbia’s police watchdog.

“Once we began the investigation there was hope in my coronary heart that she could be OK and that all the things would end up alright for Stacey and for her household.

“However I additionally wanted to be conscious that this final result may not occur – that meant having a mind set that allowed us to collect all of the proof we may discover.”

Stacey-Ann’s killer had a 9½-hour headstart on police, with the teen being kidnapped about 8.30am however the investigation not starting till round 6pm.

Roma’s police station is a small neat non-descript constructing dealing with the city’s essential road. It is easy to mistake the cream facade topped by a pink roof for a traditional household residence.

Exterior, the well-kept garden and backyard are dominated by a big white cement signal adorned with the QPS insignia and the station identify.

Inside, the constructing is a rabbit warren of workplaces. Out the again, a brief cement path connects the rear of the station with the city’s small watch-house.

Gayle and her murder boss, Detective Sergeant Bob Pease, coordinated their meticulous investigation with Roma’s detectives and uniformed officers.

One among their first jobs was looking out the police database to trace down any potential offenders, together with convicted youngster intercourse abusers, murderers or different criminals with a propensity for violence towards youngsters.

Hadlow rose to the highest of the record as quickly because the cops learn his historical past.

He might have been in a position to disguise his evil previous from Roma locals, however he couldn’t disguise it from the police.

Whereas he was their prime suspect, Gayle says their hunch wanted to be backed up with proof together with discovering objects linking him to Stacey and witnesses inserting him with the woman or on the a number of scenes of crime – the kidnapping level, the home the place he killed Stacey and the creek the place he dumped her physique.

“We appeared on the individuals who might need had contact with Stacey,” she says.

“We had one particular person inform us they noticed him driving round with what gave the impression to be somewhat blonde head seen within the automotive’s window.

“That made us suppose he might need had Stacey in his automotive – that basically involved us as we knew there have been no youngsters of that age at his residence.”

Gayle Hogan retired from Queensland Police in 2015.

Gayle Hogan retired from Queensland Police in 2015.

Police had been stationed close to Hadlow’s residence to maintain him underneath surveillance whereas detectives took to the streets to talk to locals about what they may have seen.

They tracked down a lady who had given him a raise into city after he ran out of petrol on a quiet street on the day of Stacey’s homicide.

Searchers discovered her backpack and umbrella within the space of the breakdown.

A witness who lived subsequent door to Hadlow’s residence informed police he noticed somewhat blonde-haired woman working from the house and a big man becoming the killer’s description chasing her down and dragging her again into the home.

Police additionally discovered quite a lot of objects from Hadlow’s residence – together with a mattress sheet – close to Stacey’s physique.

The piece of paper discovered on Stacey’s toe was the actual clincher although –  it was a darts’ rating sheet, the opposite half of which was discovered within the Hadlow family.

The one that wrote the numbers and names on the paper was Hadlow’ spouse, Leonie.

Whereas Leonie refused to cooperate with police, it have to be burdened that she performed no position within the homicide of Stacey and was having espresso with a pal when Hadlow dedicated his vicious crime.

“All of this gave us a transparent indication that he was the particular person answerable for Stacey’s demise,” Gayle says.

“At that stage, and since we felt we had the proof we wanted, we introduced him in for an interview.”

Gayle and Detective Pease spent hours grilling the 47-year-old, however he constantly denied having something to do with Stacey’s homicide.

“No manner, no manner,” he repeatedly informed them throughout the interrogation.

Gayle recollects a irritating second when she believed he was on the verge of confessing.

Again then, cops relied on tape machines to report their interviews with crooks.

When the tape ended, the machine gave a loud buzz, making certain police knew to insert a brand new cartridge earlier than persevering with the interogation.

“There was a degree in our interview with him when all the things turned very, very quiet,” Gayle says.

“Typically in interviews there are silences.

“We do not attempt to fill these silences with conversations or questions as a result of we need to permit the suspect an opportunity to say one thing they may need to say concerning the crime – one thing they may need to get off their chest.

“He was actually quiet for a while and I bear in mind pondering he could be about to admit as a result of his demeanor was totally different.

“Then there was this loud noise -­ the tape had stopped and the buzzer went off.

“It startled all of us – I actually do suppose it stopped him from speaking to us.

“As soon as the machine buzzed his demeanor modified and he went again to denying it.

“It was very a really irritating second for myself and my colleague as a result of we did really feel that we had been going to get a confession at that time.”

Trying into the eyes of a kid rapist and killer is one thing not many individuals may do with out emotion, however calm within the face of evil is one thing Gayle has perfected over her 40 years in policing.

“It’s simply so necessary to stay skilled,” she says.

“You simply don’t desire any emotion coming by which will impression on getting one of the best proof.

“So, it doesn’t matter what I really feel for the person and what they might have finished – it is extremely necessary that I simply exit and do my job.

“I knew I could not carry this youngster again, however I additionally knew that I couldn’t do something that may have impacted on the integrity of the investigation.”

One of the crucial necessary instruments in an investigator’s arsenal is the flexibility to realize the belief of these near the victims – it is their tales that may maintain the clues police want to unravel a homicide.

Gayle was the first police contact with Stacey’s mum Janet.

“From the beginning, I needed to make sure that Janet trusted us and that she knew we had been there and we had been going to do our degree greatest to search out her daughter or ­- if it was the worse-case state of affairs – discover out who did it,” Gayle says.

“The most important factor was to ensure Janet had confidence in us and that she knew we had been there to do no matter we may.

“Trying again now, I do hope that was what I used to be in a position to do.”

When a homicide sufferer is discovered, a member of the family is required to formally establish them by attending the morgue to view the physique.

It is a powerful course of for the liked one however it’s also exhausting for the officers accompanying them.

Gayle was the officer who took Janet to that lonely tin shed the place her kid’s physique lay.

“Seeing the physique of a homicide sufferer is at all times exhausting, however I do know this was not as exhausting for me because it was for Stacey’s mum,” Gayle says.

“I simply needed to assist her to get by the method of figuring out her youngster – I needed to do it in the very best manner for Janet.

“So sure, it is extremely emotional, however I’ve methods of defending myself and that is necessary as a result of I have to put my emotions apart so I’m able to do one of the best for the particular person on this scenario.

“I do know that if I do my job proper, then this course of will work out nice.”

Gayle Hogan now investigates deaths and serious injuries in police custody in Canada.

Gayle Hogan now investigates deaths and severe accidents in police custody in Canada.

The meticulous investigation by Gayle and  her colleagues meant Hadlow was convicted.

She says she by no means had any doubts that the jury would discover responsible the person the media labelled The Copycat Killer.

“We knew we had the proof and we at all times had religion within the system,” she says.

The record of killers Gayle has put behind bars is lengthy and contains a few of Australia’s most heinous people.

In 1989, about six months earlier than Stacey was killed, a younger lady stalked and murdered a person on the banks of the Brisbane River. Tracey Wiggington dedicated the crime with three different girls, but it surely was her determination to drink the sufferer’s blood that noticed her dubbed the Vampire Killer.

In 1991, Gayle investigated the homicide of 19-year-old Cheree Richardson on the Sunshine Coast. Cheree was killed by Bevan Meninga, whose brother Mal is now a Queensland rugby league icon.

She additionally helped put away Bentley White who raped and strangled to demise Robyn Jane Kennedy in 1990; and he or she was an integral a part of the multi-state apprehension of Robert Steele, Leonard Leabeater and Raymond Bassett.

These three thugs went on a two-state nine-day killing spree in 1993, ending the lives of 14-year-old Deborah Gale as wells as Mark Barlow, Anthony Percival, Gordon Currell and Robert Miller.

Born and raised a Roman Catholic, 61-year-old Gayle not attends church recurrently however stresses that her spirituality and religion in God have helped her get by the various extraordinarily powerful moments in her profession.

“Faith is only one a part of me, but it surely doesn’t dictate all the things I do,” she says.

“I do consider in God and all of the ideas of being honest and trustworthy, ensuring I am one of the best particular person I will be and that impacts all the things I do.”

After leaving the Murder Squad, Gayle managed Toowoomba’s Legal Investigation Department and was finally appointed an assistant police commissioner.

She retired from Queensland Police Service in 2015 and spent the previous 5 years with Canada’s Unbiased Investigations Workplace, the place she oversaw investigations of deaths and severe accidents in police custody.

She expects to return to Australia along with her husband Peter in August, with plans to retire in southeast Queensland.

Talking within the days earlier than the 30th anniversary of Stacey’s homicide, Gayle displays on the little woman’s legacy.

“It is a time once I consider Stacey and of the folks impacted by her demise,” she says.

“Stacey and all the different victims stick with me in some ways and I typically take into consideration the best way they’ve influenced my position as a police officer.

“As a direct results of investigating Stacey’s demise … I used to be ready to ensure our investigation processes improved and my expertise ensured these inside Queensland Police handled a myriad of issues higher so that folks may belief in us as police and within the organisation itself.”

Stacey-Ann Tracy and Sandra Bacon were murdered by Barry Gordon Hadlow.

Stacey-Ann Tracy and Sandra Bacon had been murdered by Barry Gordon Hadlow.


ON the day my stepfather was charged with Stacey’s homicide,  I sat on the backstep of the Roma Police Station, wanting into the watchhouse.

I stared at him by the wire cage and he stared again at me. Not a phrase was exchanged. I needed to yell at him, to ask him why? However I used to be not courageous sufficient and shortly the second handed.

I used to be livid at him. I used to be distraught that an harmless little woman had been subjected to such brutality. And I used to be involved for the protection and well-being of my very own sisters.

I had many questions for him and the police, however principally I needed to know why he selected to rape and homicide?

Nobody has ever been in a position to reply that query – not the police, the legal professionals, the choose or the consultants on violence.

And positively not Hadlow.

Though he made some boasts about his actions to fellow prisoners, he by no means admitted formally to the killing of Stacey and so he went to his grave in 2007, with out revealing why he was the best way he was.

Hadlow married my mom barely months after he was launched from jail in 1985, with each telling myself and my siblings that he killed a person in a barfight.

Who had been we to know higher?

Again then, it was very exhausting to deep dive into an individual’s historical past. There was no Google, no on-line archives of newspapers and no simply accessible databases of violent perpetrators to test.

It wasn’t till after he was charged with Stacey-Ann’s homicide that the reality of his previous got here to mild.

News Corp journalist Sherele Moody.

Information Corp journalist Sherele Moody.

Hadlow was – to be blunt-  grotesque inside and outside.

My stepfather was a loud obnoxious man who at all times managed to make himself the centre of consideration.

If you happen to informed a narrative, he would inform an identical story however it will be larger, louder, bolder and extra unimaginable – but for all his grandiose boasting, he was remarkably environment friendly at hiding his personal horrific secrets and techniques.

Standing over six ft tall, Hadlow was an enormous of a person with broad shoulders, hefty chest and large legs.

Barely arched eyebrows framed his chilly piercing eyes.

A deep furrow marked his heavy brow. His nostril was broad and bulbous and a messy greasy greying beard and moustache framed his thick pale lips and hid his protuberant chin.

He referred to as his beard “the soup-strainer” as a result of crumbs of meals would typically get tangled in it, falling out when he’d stroke the lengthy whiskers.

He hardly ever bathed, he reeked of BO and his hair was unkempt and straggly, slicked again by a disgusting combination of Vaseline and scalp grease.

He was morbidly overweight, ingesting gallons of sugary drinks a day and hoovering down dish after dish of meals. His favourite meal was boiled pig or sheep head. He’d eat each a part of the poor issues –  shoving the eyes, tongue and brains in his mouth with soiled fingers – and licking the bones dry.

The factor I bear in mind most about Hadlow although, is his arms.

They had been huge they usually had been merciless, squashing cockroaches with the flat of his palms as they scurried on benches or partitions; breaking the necks of puppies, kittens and different tiny helpless animals with a fast twist of his wrist.

It saddens me to know that these repulsive lumps of fleshy meat gripped Stacey and Sandra’s delicate throats, squeezing the life out of their our bodies.

Sandra Dorothy Bacon was murdered by Barry Gordon Hadlow in Townsville in 1962. He was arrested days after killing Sandra and joining the search for her body.

Sandra Dorothy Bacon was murdered by Barry Gordon Hadlow in Townsville in 1962. He was arrested days after killing Sandra and becoming a member of the seek for her physique. FILE PHOTO

My mom lived an itinerant life-style, dragging her eight youngsters from residence to residence throughout NSW – from Camperdown in Sydney to On line casino within the Northern Rivers district.

Once I was 15, she headed to Queensland.

Shortly after arriving within the Sunshine State she connected with Hadlow.

She appeared to quiet down, at first in Toowoomba, earlier than shopping for a small shack at Gowrie Junction and finally heading west in 1989.

Their integration into Roma was swift – Hadlow bought a job on the native grocery store and toy store they usually enrolled my sisters into the identical faculty the Tracy women would attend.

Eager darts gamers, the Hadlows joined one of many native groups, turning into key gamers and holding prized positions on the committee.

Hadlow fancied himself an excellent bloke, reinforcing this by signing as much as the area’s department of the volunteer-based State Emergency Service.

So nicely embraced was he, that he performed Santa Clause for the city’s youngsters’s Christmas celebration – simply six months later he would homicide Stacey-Ann.

I am positive if the residents of Roma had recognized concerning the monster of their midst, he would by no means have been in a position to entry youngsters so simply.

And if they’d know who he actually was, it is extremely doubtless that he would by no means have had the possibility to kill Stacey.

They are saying she was useless inside 30 to 40 minutes of him kidnapping her.

It isn’t recognized how he bought her into his automotive, however as quickly as he did he drove her to an empty home that he and my mom deliberate to maneuver into that very same afternoon.

Surrounded by shifting packing containers, he positioned Stacey on considered one of my mom’s sheets and raped her.

After he murdered the kid, he wrapped her physique within the rubbish bag, modified his garments – which had blood and different fluids on them – and bundled Stacey, the sheet and different objects into the again of his station wagon.

He drove out of city, dumping his sufferer within the bush by the creek and tossing her faculty bag at one other website.

Later that afternoon, I arrived on the town to spend time with my sisters.

He collected me from the bus cease. It was solely six or so hours after he murdered Stacey, but nothing about him set off alarm bells.

Within the days earlier than his arrest he was keen and enthusiastic about serving to seek for “the little woman who went lacking”.

All of the items fell into place when a big group of uniformed officers and detectives arrived on my mom’s doorstep, search warrant in hand.

They got here searching for proof. They left with him in handcuffs, protesting his innocence, and the household station wagon on the again of a tow truck.

Whereas Leonie refused to assist police and my sisters had been too younger to shoulder that burden, I selected to do all the things I may to make issues proper for Stacey and her household.

I used to be a witness for the prosecution at Hadlow’s homicide trial, offering the proof police wanted to hyperlink the darts rating paper, the sheet and different objects to him and Leonie.

This price me my relationship with my mom – who has since settled in Ipswich – and broken my relationship with my siblings. I used to be labelled a liar by his defence crew – a slur that was repeated by the media.

This was a life-changing expertise and in some ways it impressed me to observe a profession in journalism.

But it surely nonetheless took a few years for me to talk about Stacey-Ann. That reluctance to voice her story is gone now and as a substitute, I funnel my anger and disappointment over Hadlow’s evil actions into advocating for an finish to all types of violence.

Stacey-Ann was a prankster, a great friend to many and an intelligent and talented youngster.

Stacey-Ann was a prankster, an ideal pal to many and an clever and gifted teen.

I by no means met Stacey, however I’ve carried her in my coronary heart for 30 years now.

There are occasions once I wake in that second between darkish and daybreak, serious about how terrifying that final half hour of Stacey’s life will need to have been.

It is exhausting to shake off the picture of this behemoth of a person perpetrating unspeakable acts of brutality towards a fragile youngster on that one monstrous day in Might.

Stacey-Ann was simply 9 years and two weeks outdated when her time in our world ended, however the impression of her too quick existence continues to be being felt some 30 years later.

Her life – and demise – has marked her household in methods they may by no means have foreseen.

Her sister Libby, mum Janet and grandmother Joan may have crumbled underneath the burden of their tragedy, however as a substitute they’ve discovered power and hope within the reminiscences of her laughter, her pranks, her singing, her mind, her fierce independence and her lust for all times.

Her pal Charlie has weathered the ups and downs of dropping her greatest mate and the data that she might by no means fairly discover one other particular person to fill the void left by Stacey. Regardless of her ache, Charlie strikes ahead one step at a time with grace and fortitude, making certain her personal youngsters are protected against the evil that so typically walks amongst us.

Gayle, the detective who labored so exhausting to carry Hadlow to justice, continues her quest to carry violent folks to account.

By telling Stacey’s story, we hope that different Australians can be impressed to take a stand towards violence.

We can’t change the ending for Stacey, for Sandra or for any of the opposite youngsters, ladies and men misplaced to violence however by sharing their experiences of life and demise we may make our nation a safer place.

After homicide, hope is all that continues to be.

*For 24-hour sexual violence help name the nationwide hotline 1800RESPECT on 1800 737 732 or MensLine on 1800 600 636.

Information Corp’s Sherele Moody has a number of journalism excellence awards for her work highlighting violence in Australia. The Sunshine Coast native can also be an Our Watch fellow, the founding father of The RED HEART Marketing campaign and the creator of the Australian Femicide & Baby Dying Map and The Memorial to Ladies and Kids Misplaced to Violence.

Twitter: @sherelemoody


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